I’m very excited to be marrying my best friend, the love of my life, my scrabble opponent, co-cat and rabbit wrangler, etc. I know the day will be perfect, because it is ours. Committing to love each other for the rest of our days in front of our family and friends is a dream come true. So now that you know that I really do love him, you won’t be alarmed by the rest of my post.
This wedding terrifies me. Not in the cold feet sort of way, but in the social anxiety sort of way. I love our friends. I love our family. But sometimes being with them makes me want to retreat to a warm bubble bath and a good book. Here are some of the wedding planning challenges for anxious people.
The bridal party
What if they don’t actually want to be in my wedding? What if they feel awkward? What if I feel awkward? Did I ask everyone I should have? Did I ask too many people? Or not enough? Ahhhhhhh!
The walk down the aisle
Can we skip the part where everyone turns around and watches you walk down the aisle, please? What if I fall on my face?
Something I avoid doing in public. How can I make this less awkward? I’m going with alcohol for this one.
The list goes on and on. What if everyone is bored? What if they start talking politics? Or religion? Bum Bum Buuuuuuhhhhhmmmmmm.
A courthouse wedding crossed my mind, but we have too many people who have loved and supported us, been a huge part of our lives. I want to share the moment.
So if you see something new and strange at our wedding, it’s not an old family tradition or some modern statement. It’s me trying to change the day so I’m a little less awkward.